Selected Essays
Eight pieces to start with. Free to read, no paywall.
How I Plan My AuDHD Life
Time blocking, GTD, Zettelkasten, and the Snowflake Method: four systems I built before knowing I was neurodivergent, and that turned out to be the architecture my brain needed all along.
At 48 I Still Look 35. Science Says Autism Is the Reason
Neoteny, evolutionary biology, and the paradox of looking a decade younger while fighting to be taken seriously. I grew a beard out of desperation. Then a diagnosis reframed everything.
The Little Prince Is the Secret Autistic Handbook We All Needed as Children
Saint-Exupéry, Dostoevsky, and Nietzsche read through the lens of late diagnosis. The boa that everyone calls a hat. The fox who teaches taming. The serpent's bite as metamorphosis.
The 48 Year Performance: How an Adult Diagnosis Rewrote My Entire Life
Seven things I carried for decades without a name: the theater of social calculation, the wool sweater that never stopped burning, the lunch no one came to, and the week of total darkness that preceded the diagnosis.
The Invisible Architecture of Exclusion: Why Groups Ignore Autism (Without Realizing It)
Foucault, Asch's conformity experiments, and the mechanics of how a room full of decent people can erase someone without a single conscious decision. The exclusion runs on autopilot.
The Alexithymia Paradox: Why My Brain Processes Logic Instead of Emotion
I spent years trying to fly like a fish forced out of water. Then I stopped. My body registers no emotional peaks, but Maxwell's equations and the Heisenberg principle make my system light up. A different frequency, not a broken one.
Isolation Saved My Life (And I'm Not Sick)
Society celebrates monks who retreat in silence and pathologizes autistic people who do the same. Three days without seeing anyone is not withdrawal. It is how I keep functioning.
Is it Depression or Autistic Burnout? Why the Difference Matters for Psychedelic Therapy
Three years with the wrong diagnosis, SSRIs that changed nothing, and a nervous system that had simply stopped after decades of forced performance. Psilocybin research offers a hypothesis, not a cure. The distinction matters.
These are selected pieces. The full archive lives on Medium.